1st Birthday Spanking scheduled!

As suspected HH is the first to schedule a birthday spanking! And now the clock starts ticking... and the nerves start building! In addition I need to weigh myself and see if I have lost the required weight ....if not the strokes will be added in addition to the 12 for my birthday. I must weigh myself tomorrow morning and check that I am on track to loose the 5 kilograms this month as agreed with sluttyboi on his last visit 2 weeks ago.

I am petrified as it is about half way into the month allocated and I have yet to weigh myself.... and it is Birthday time... scrummy chocolate cake and champagne etc.... and lovely dinners cooked by slave while we are away.... damn, I see that I am going to have to go on a starvation diet for the 2 weeks post birthday if I have a remote chance in hell of making my target.

Oh dear ! so 12 for birthday, another 6 if have not at least lost 2 kilograms....hope I have lost more....:) oops....

And we all know what my bottom looked like last time after 18.... if I am not careful it will look like this again if not worse! Now I really am starting to develop a slight case of the nerves... oh who am I kidding ... a terrible case of the nerves.... as getting 18 this week will indicate that I am fast on my way to receiving 45! Damn...

Monday Blues

I have had such a crazy week and a busy weekend work wise and even though I have tried really hard to eat only what I should,I have had a couple of drinks and am quiet sure that I have not lost enough weight this past week and the clock is ticking towards the date I need to have lost 5 kilograms or face 45 strokes from HH and on top of that a caning /spanking of undetermined strokes from sluttyboi... I am petrified of what will happen and have been having flashes of what my bottom is going to look like and the rest of me...

My bottom blue...

I am feeling more than a little blue knowing that my bottom and other bits are going to be blue ....that is a blue little bottom after 6 or so...

What happens after 45 ? We know what happens after 28....

so I may just feel blue emotionally at this time, but I am getting the distinct feeling that I am going to literally be blue as well.... I really need to get more exercise and not drink....