Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Monday, 1 August 2011

1st Birthday Spanking scheduled!



As suspected HH is the first to schedule a birthday spanking! And now the clock starts ticking... and the nerves start building! In addition I need to weigh myself and see if I have lost the required weight ....if not the strokes will be added in addition to the 12 for my birthday. I must weigh myself tomorrow morning and check that I am on track to loose the 5 kilograms this month as agreed with sluttyboi on his last visit 2 weeks ago.

I am petrified as it is about half way into the month allocated and I have yet to weigh myself.... and it is Birthday time... scrummy chocolate cake and champagne etc.... and lovely dinners cooked by slave while we are away.... damn, I see that I am going to have to go on a starvation diet for the 2 weeks post birthday if I have a remote chance in hell of making my target.

Oh dear ! so 12 for birthday, another 6 if have not at least lost 2 kilograms....hope I have lost more....:) oops....

And we all know what my bottom looked like last time after 18.... if I am not careful it will look like this again if not worse! Now I really am starting to develop a slight case of the nerves... oh who am I kidding ... a terrible case of the nerves.... as getting 18 this week will indicate that I am fast on my way to receiving 45! Damn...



Thursday, 21 July 2011

The bloody clock again......

The weekend report will continue later today as I have all week , however it is punishment night tonight and I am all nervous as all hell again! The waiting and the ever increasing nervousness and rising panic... that always precedes a punishment session!

28 with the cane from HH and a pre caning warm up spanking with who knows what ? I know for certain it will not be HH's hand... I fear the paddle or the tawse will be the implement of choice and after my fine strapping of Sunday ( in the next sluttySir feedback) I have more than a dastardly fear of the strap/tawse...


It has been months since my last punishment session and I am more than nervous about tonight as the feedback from Raven is that she can hardly sit today and needed to sleep on her tummy last night...

ohhhh please let mine be less severe....

More later as my nerves really kick in and last weekend feedback at about 10pm mine tonight!